Many different trains of thought have an idea of "be, do, have". People often think that if they have something, they can do something, then they can be something. The most common one being money. If I have money then I can do "blah", and I will be happy. When in reality it is much more effective to "be, do, have". Be happy...then the rest can fall into place. I've come to the conclusion with the farm that I need to be a farmgirl to do farmgirl things and then I will have my farm. As opposed to waiting until I have my farm to be a farmgirl. I also realized that alot of this has to do with fear. I am afraid of failing, so I don't do those farmgirl things so that I don't have a chance to fail.
So...in the farmgirl spirit...we got chickens this weekend (well...we got chicks)! They are about 7 days old and have just passed the cute phase and are fast approaching the ugly duckling phase where their wing and tail feathers are coming in. I never thought that in my lifetime I would say "I'm giong to check for pasty butts". But there it is.
Monday, February 21, 2011
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
A Farm and a truck
The universe has really been testing us this year. Starting this farm is a very scary thing for folks like us who have spent our adult lives living in the certainty of a regular paycheck (in one job or another) and days that are the same as the last. Living every day in a rut and working for someone else. Just making a paycheck to pay off something.
Starting this farm is like throwing that certainty out the window while driving down the highway at mach one. It can cause you to panic and freeze up on any forward progress. That's what this last year has been. We decided that we needed to get some fencing up so that we can get some cattle out there. Keep in mind...once that fence is up...there is nothing stopping us from getting this going. Except ourselves. That, my friends, is a very scary thing.
In life we are faced wtih choices. Now, I can sit here all day and come up with many different excuses as to why we hadn't gotten it done. But they would all be excuses. And it would just be a waste of time. The fact of the matter is, we need to "shit or get off the pot" in a manner of speaking.
And then...my truck died. After 127,000 miles, she had had enough. That's okay...she's getting a transplant and will be good as new in a few days. I can't wait. She's going to get a detail. I'm going to paint up her little rusty spots (kind of like getting her nails done)...and then...the piece de resistence...I'm going to put on her "Certified Farmgirl" sticker!!
She's earned it.
Starting this farm is like throwing that certainty out the window while driving down the highway at mach one. It can cause you to panic and freeze up on any forward progress. That's what this last year has been. We decided that we needed to get some fencing up so that we can get some cattle out there. Keep in mind...once that fence is up...there is nothing stopping us from getting this going. Except ourselves. That, my friends, is a very scary thing.
In life we are faced wtih choices. Now, I can sit here all day and come up with many different excuses as to why we hadn't gotten it done. But they would all be excuses. And it would just be a waste of time. The fact of the matter is, we need to "shit or get off the pot" in a manner of speaking.
And then...my truck died. After 127,000 miles, she had had enough. That's okay...she's getting a transplant and will be good as new in a few days. I can't wait. She's going to get a detail. I'm going to paint up her little rusty spots (kind of like getting her nails done)...and then...the piece de resistence...I'm going to put on her "Certified Farmgirl" sticker!!
She's earned it.
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